i want my Haven

It'd be so nice if there was a place we disgruntled timegoers could reside in, to just chill in unchangingness for a while. I'm not talkin cryogenics, i don't want to be utterly still while the world passes by, i want exactly the opposite. I want the world to stand still so i can hang out and not get any older and be happy. oh fuck this i say it all the time no one needs to hear this nobody is benefiting, least of all me cuz i pretend something good might come out of sharing. So you guys aren't affected cuz you'll just never see it, but i get to sigh again as another post joins the list and still i'm nowhere but behind. Yes i'm sick as fuck physically, yes i'm sick of the world morally, yes i'm sick of trying anything emotional, and having said that, nothing is better. Why am i still typing?I got nothing. I'm falling behind, i'm nowhere close the the person i want to be and i don't have the motivation to get there. I'm not going to matter when i grow up, i'm depressed by the world and i'm not even in it yet. i want to be happy again, it's been soooo long