i'm only typing it here cuz teh shit library computers don't have Word

nevermind.. i'm too drugged and tired













worthless

i want my Haven

It'd be so nice if there was a place we disgruntled timegoers could reside in, to just chill in unchangingness for a while. I'm not talkin cryogenics, i don't want to be utterly still while the world passes by, i want exactly the opposite. I want the world to stand still so i can hang out and not get any older and be happy. oh fuck this i say it all the time no one needs to hear this nobody is benefiting, least of all me cuz i pretend something good might come out of sharing. So you guys aren't affected cuz you'll just never see it, but i get to sigh again as another post joins the list and still i'm nowhere but behind. Yes i'm sick as fuck physically, yes i'm sick of the world morally, yes i'm sick of trying anything emotional, and having said that, nothing is better. Why am i still typing?I got nothing. I'm falling behind, i'm nowhere close the the person i want to be and i don't have the motivation to get there. I'm not going to matter when i grow up, i'm depressed by the world and i'm not even in it yet. i want to be happy again, it's been soooo long

Back off, idjit

I was reading my Cultural Ecology book today and Mr.s Sutton and Anderson were going on and on about how destructive Western farming techniques are both to the environment and underdeveloped countries, and the further i read the more disgruntled i became. I can't stand it when i read things that directly attack a certain style of, well anything. Obviously i strongly disagree with how rampantly free industries are to pollute and think it's an absolute crime that they don't change their ways to save our world, but still it makes me angry to hear people rant about how "evil" big corporations are and how anything that generates money is something diabolical that must be fought against.

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I would find it much more preferable to develop a new way of doing things, show the industries, and then only financially support the ones who use the newer more eco-friendly techniques. Let's face it, the only thing capitalism garuntees is that companies will do their level best to generate as much money as possible, and we need to work to ensure that money gets distributed as evenly as possible. We can't just sit back and expect them to take factors like the environment into account, because right now it isn't a problem that's stopping them from getting money. It doesn't matter, they can ignore it. So they will. Is this surprising to you? Do you expect them to drop out of competition and spend millions of their dollars on conservation instead of, say, marketing and expansion? Guess what peoples, that's not how they play. They can't, they'll get out-progressed and fold and it's senseless to want that.

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Companies are very easy things to play with, actually. You know how you can tie a feather to the end of a string and a kitten will do anything in its power to catch it? You can lead the dumb little mofo in any direction cuz it wants that feather. Companies are no different at all, they follow money around even more blindly than the kitty. Who has all the money? Les consumers. We do. We're holding the string. You want companies to go in an environmentally safe direction? Lead 'em that way! Okay now that all the dumb hippies left to weave the world's largest hemp rope with hopes of attracting ExxonMobil's attention, i'll say that it's obviously not a strictly physical string. But if a company sees that all the 90% recycled polystyrene items are being bought, you can bet your farm that they'll build themselves a recycling plant and get busy. If we stop buying wood made from tropical trees and stick to temperate hardwoods and plastic planks, bang we just saved a zillion acres of rainforest without a single protest. And more importantly, no bad blood. No one being angry at each other, no contempt by the beaurocratic for the environuts and hatred vice versa. Just Americans being awesome and using our massive money might to protect that awesome planet thing we live on. Awesome.

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Stop the hating and back off my country, Sutton. When i'm President i'm gonna whip the populace into shape and tell them to start controlling the country for themselves instead of whining and wanting the government to somehow do it all. What lazy inconsiderate ungrateful fools. "Waahhh the government isn't spending a billion dollars on this problem! or that one! or this vague one over here! The government spends too much money aaaa i'm so sad i'm moving to Canada". Well dammit folks you have most of the money. Band together, whiners, control your urges and stop demanding that the government fix problems you've created and aren't doing a thing to fix. Let Washington establish trade and fight bad guys, you take care of the rest and quit your whining.

ha ha ha

A big royal beer: LARGE REGAL LAGER

Hi-larious!!


A member of the butchering crew: MEAT-TEAM MATE

Oh goodness. Brilliant.

Automatically Inhibiting Mentality

I just realized today that i've stopped thinking. I worry about grades, my schedule for next semester, and getting a house for next year, and my creative thought has shriveled up and died. Apparently my brain is content to soak up TV, and the only interaction i need is AIM. Cable and AIM. The Two Horsemen of the Collapse. I gotta start pondering and wondering again.. i shudder to think how many paper-worthy ideas have failed to come into being because i stopped allowing my mind to produce them. To be fair, i'm hideously sick right now and ahve been for a while, no doubt that has impeded the mental processes at least a little. Oh i liked that, just freewriting gets me back in the zone a little bit. I'd like to thank zac for waking me up, his blog updates are what drew my inaction to my attention. I'll try to get going again, i promise.

fuck the drinkers. you're not cool. you're not rebellious. you're stupid. and you're assholes, all of you. the only reason people tolerate you is to feel like maybe they're not as huge a loser as they are. YOU SUCK. being loud and stupid isn't funny, it's pathetic. wow, you must be a stud, you went to a party and got laid. oh wait, you're a whore and a rapist cuz you stuck your woefully inadequate dick into someone's daughter whose brain was way too drugged to know what was going on, i hope you get every STD in the book. asswipes. think the guys like you for your personalities, ladies? think they think you're cute? sorry, when they're wasted thats not what they're thinking about. the only thing awesome about drinking is that it kills the drinkers a little bit more every time they take a sip. die slowly, assface, die bit by bit. but that's never the way, is it? not long ago a fifteen year old girl scout was killed by one of you awesome partiers as she was out selling cookies. i know it doesn't sound all that bad to you moral-lacking fuckheads, but that is absolutely repulsive. there is nothing worse than that. it sickens me. it should sicken you, but no you're too cool for that. hey, whatever man, it's college right? best years of your life, dude! congratulations, you fucking statistic. well done, you managed to dodge all of that potential and settle down into the stereotype drunk college idiot. you gave in. you're not special. you're not special. you're just another helping of the same old tired formula. you want to stand out? quit drinking. quit drinking and see if anybody around still thinks you're a fun guy, i dare you. you can't do it. you have nothing to offer unless you're getting blasted. people will only be fooled into enjoying your company when their brains are forcibly deprived of oxygen, when they intentionally limit their capacity to think, that's the only time you're of vague interest. think i'm wrong? think i'm just missing out? prove me wrong, be a man, grow some balls, put down the bottle.



SXE ARMY, BITCHES

Aaannddd... you lose.

He/She/Ugly's back!!
That title offends It though, so i'm going to have to come up with a new name. How about... Futile. Futile didn't like me "attacking his appearance" or something like that, which is complete idiocy as i don't know what he looks like. Futile's score so far: -1. I don't know much about him (or even if it is a him), but the more he talks the more i know that "futile" is a good word for him, so super we'll go with that.
Anywho, Futile discounted my entire counterpost as "babble" and insisted that i was just judging left and right again. First off he again failed to use the right word, "babble" refers to people talking, in print or type it''s 'drivel'. Futile's score: -2. How is it that an entire memorandum based on things he himself said can be called drivel? Perhaps because the work it was based on (his comment) was bullshit? I agree! Ten demerits! Actually just one, i'm nice, you're at -3. Maybe futile doesn't understand the nature of the word "judging", but defending myself against words he said does not fall under it's jurisdiction at all. You lose a point, and stop abusing our poor language, alright?

I can only assume Futile ran out of things to say and was grasping for a way to put me down when he said "so shut up and go away". Shut up and go away. He came to my blog, twice, attacked my opinions, personality, morals, and lifestyle, then says i judge people and tells ME to GO AWAY. Everybody read that again, ponder it, and realized what an absolute idiot he is. And no, Futile, that's not judging, that's coming to a logical conclusion based on the evidence you gave me. Bumbling moron. Illiterate fool. I'd tell you to go away, and that would actually work because this is mine, but i like it when you post, i thoroughly enjoy ripping you apart.

He also said that he's not my friend. I didn't need him to tell me that, i don't befriend intolerant morons. All i speculated was that he was someone at my school. This is very strange, because only a very very small group of people know about this blog, at least i've only told a small few about it. That means that this chump came to the blog uninvited, which is fine, but i'd be interested in knowing who the hell it is and why he keeps bothering me. In fact, who are you, Futile? Give me a name, and i can start calling you by it instead of hurting your poor little ego by coming up with them myself. Oh and by the way, your final score was -5, and that's not even including your first BS-filled comment.

Dissection of an Attack.

Before you read this, check out my post about Dante and look at the comments.




I thought it might be fun to pull apart the comment of someone who clearly detests me, but also interestingly enough seems to know me, and probably I him/her/ugly. (I'll point out here that people at this school hating me is very very low on my list of things that bother me).
Right off the bat, i'd like to say that nowhere in my unexpected rabble-rousing post did i claim to be infallible, no human is, and the closest one we have to perfection died last weekend. Had i said that i was indeed better than everyone, maybe He/She/Ugly's eigth point -hypocrisy- might have held water.

Let's go through my tickets to Hell one by one, shall we?

-Wrath
In accordance with my apparent yet strangely absent claim to be perfect, He/She/Ugly seems to think i should be able to rise above the human tendency to become agry when its territory, family, or morals are compromised. Gee, you're right, i must not be as perfect as i didn't say i was. Oh, and i won't point out that you seem extremely wrathful that i made this post, because that might undermine the validity of everything you said, thus rendering the rest of this counterpost useless, and i've already put too much work into it to want that to happen.

-Sloth
This one is serious. One sees all sorts of crazy things in the college atmostphere, but a student who doesn't finish his work the day it's handed out? Measures must be taken. I submit that henceforth any college student with work assigned and undone be put to death immediately, as Satan should not be deprived of such a prize any longer than he has to. It embarrasses me to think of the long tradition of strict hard work, utter dedication, and isolation from any non-academic pursuits found in the collegiate arena. I am ashamed. He/She/Ugly knows me personally (i believe) and is thusly privy to knowledge the rest of you may be unaware of. In my first semester my Fatal Transgression of Sloth cause me to fail all of my classes, except for the five (out of five) that i passed with good marks.

-Gluttony
Ooh.. as i was finishing up my Sloth rebuttle i was just tingling to hurry it up and get to this one. Haha. I love this. I bet He/She/Ugly had to think long and hard to come up with something for this Sin, as any knowledge of me will make one aware that i don't drink ever, i don't smoke or do any drugs of any sort ever, i don't have sex with everyone i meet (or anyone at all, more specifically)... and i'm in college. College, the one place where you can literally get away with absolutely anything, and in a few years it's forgiven. "Oh, it was in college, we were all crazy then." Yeah... oh and i gave up meat for Lent. I heart meat. A lot. Then went 40 days without it in the name of religion. Good try, He/She/Ugly, but i don't think you can send me to Hell for my favorite soda. (If you actually meant Mountain Dew, which is not what you said.)

-Lust
"Hmmm.... flirting counts". Weak, He/She/Ugly, weak. This Sin is meant more for adultery than slight mutual innuendo amongst young adults. Or so i, the fallible human, would think, but as you're apparently some sort of Supreme Being who is both fully cognizant of and above the laws set by God for men, i imagine you know better than i.

-Pride
What a terrible example. Patriotism. Love for my country is a Mortal Sin? I think what He/She/Ugly was trying to say was that i displayed "jingoism" which is the applicable word for someone who prideful of their country to a fault. If you had used that word i'd be at a loss for a retort, cuz you're damn right i'm too proud of my country. But anyway, thank you for having no vocabulary and allowing me to expose yet another flaw.

-Greed
Again, i'm scum. Who on this Earth could be so vile as to want money? It's piggish of me to want a way to (immediately) pay for this school, have food, have shelter -you know, the whole basic-needs-for-human-life thang, and (in the long run) give to charities and whatnot and do my best to make sure as many other people can be fed as my power will allow. I would feel kinda dumb saying that, if i didn't already have a large post about it. (Scroll down, it's really there!)

-Envy
I find this one a little disturbing... what talent am i low on? The only action i mentioned in the post was abortion... Am i bad at killing babies? And i'm going to Hell for that? Something seems hideously backwards here, my Mortal Sin is that i'm not good at breaking a Commandment. Sorry He/She/Ugly, i can't quite get what you're saying. I'll say something though; while i don't possess and talent worthy of, say, national recognition, i am a very athletic kid, an accomplished drummer, modestly skillfull linguist, and i can spell "Dew". I guess you're right, there are some talents i'm low on. Like skateboarding.

-Hipocrisy
Oops, already covered it. Well while i'm here i might as well ponder why He/She/Ugly thought God hadn't done a good enough job laying out his own rules... are you better than God? Do you know more than him? That's impressive.